Kat's Arbitrary Thought Processes

I think I’m somewhat of a split personality. I love graphic design. I love creating something awesome. Then again, I love writing. So often writing is my very own form of therapy, a catharsis for my stress.I do both equally well. I’ve been told I am an awesome writer, and I’ve been told that my designs rock. But I know I could be better. I could write a novel. or I could be a famous designer on par with Meredith, Carrie, and Gina. But can I do both? and still manage a house-full of kids, homeschool, housework, and support my DH while he’s fulfilling his duty to our great country? Should I focus on one? or should I continue to allow my ADD self to swing back and forth between the two?

In Sister Act 2, Sister Mary Clarance advises her young protogé, “If you wake up in the morning, and all you think about is singing first… Then, girl, you supposed to be a singer.” Well… ok.. but usually, first thing I think about in the morning is going back to sleep. *S* After that, my kids, but once I have time to myself, it varies. There are days, like today, I want to do nothing but blog. I want to write, I must write. But there are other days, like yesterday, when I just want to play with photoshop and create a new kit, or scrap a page, or just do something graphical in nature. (as in images and art, not *that* kind of graphic.. get your minds outta the gutter! *wink wink*)

There are times when my artistic side is stifled due to stress, and writing is the only release that will allow me to simultaneously embrace and release the stress, allowing the log jam blocking my inner artist to break loose. Yet there are also times when words fail, and my only outlet is my art. In those times, a good piece of artwork or design can literally loosen my tongue, and suddenly words flow through my fingers. So it would seem that the one can not exist without the other, and vice versa.

So what is the solution?  I feel as though there is so much I am missing out on in either realm.  So many good writers and blog groups and what not I could join, so many ways to get more widely recognized in the blogosphere, you know?  Same goes for my design career.  There are so many missed opportunities to advertise and get my name out there.  I could literally sit on my rear end all day and surf forums, send ads, and all the other non-glorious things that come with any business…

But what’s the solution?  It seems I can either pick one to focus on, or accept mediocrity in both.  I don’t like either of those answers.  I’d prefer to excel in both realms.  But I don’t have the time, I have kids.