{"id":51,"date":"2005-08-10T00:12:33","date_gmt":"2005-08-10T08:12:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.yuriar.com\/wp\/?p=51"},"modified":"2005-08-10T00:12:33","modified_gmt":"2005-08-10T08:12:33","slug":"more-randomness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/2005\/08\/10\/more-randomness\/","title":{"rendered":"more randomness"},"content":{"rendered":"<div><font size=\"2\" face=\"Arial\">Alrighty&#8230;.   there is so much the last few days that I have wanted to blog.  Yet with my  dh on leave, I have been trying (unsuccessfully) to stay away from the  computer.  So here&#8217;s a few of the topics that have hit me this  weekend.  <\/font><\/div>\n<div><font size=\"2\" face=\"Arial\">For some reason, and  it may be the PMS speaking, but every time I see my baby (DS7months), this wave  of emotion just crashes over me.  I have found myself standing over his  crib more than once with tears in my eyes.  He is growing so big so  fast.  It almost feels like I am missing it all!  I&#8217;m sure this  feeling is heightened by the knowledge that he is my last baby.  Don&#8217;t get  me wrong, I do not for one second regret my tubal.  Just that every so  often the realization that he is my last baby ever washes over me.  I start  feeling like he is growing way too fast, before I know it he will be walking and  talking and I will be left wondering what happened to my little baby.   <\/font><\/div>\n<div><font size=\"2\" face=\"Arial\">My b-i-l &amp;  s-i-l were here this weekend.  I loved having them over.  It is so  rare that we get to see members from my dh&#8217;s side of the family.  The kids  had such a blast getting to know their Tia and Tio.  <\/font><\/div>\n<div><font size=\"2\" face=\"Arial\">My own angels  have been in my mind quite often again.  Angel, Mysterie, Sunshine, and  Charity are never far from my thoughts these days.  Again, it may be the  PMS speaking&#8230;  but as much as I mourn the loss of my DS7mos babyhood, I  rejoice that I will not be mourning the loss of another baby.  I do not  think I could handle another loss, especially knowing now what I know about my  body.  Anyway, there are always quite alot of deep feelings and thought  that accompany my angels, but I just don&#8217;t feel that I can go there right now  and be able to have a happy day tomorow.  <\/font><\/div>\n<div><font size=\"2\" face=\"Arial\">so much more, but I  really can&#8217;t think any more tonight.  I can&#8217;t tell you how many times a day  I think some deep profound thought, and wish I could get to the computer right  then and there to type it all out&#8230;  I really need to start carrying my  notebook (a real notebook, not a notebook computer!) around with me and jot  down ideas as they come.  <\/font><\/div>\n<div><font size=\"2\" face=\"Arial\" \/><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Alrighty&#8230;. there is so much the last few days that I have wanted to blog. Yet with my dh on leave, I have been trying (unsuccessfully) to stay away from &#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[6,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-51","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-family_life","category-randomness"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=51"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/51\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=51"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=51"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yuriar.com\/katp\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=51"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}