I just sent my mom and husband out with the kids for the boys\u2019 soccer games.\u00a0 Here I sit on the couch\u2026\u00a0 I know this is where I should be this week.\u00a0 I know from my excursion to practice Thursday afternoon that the car ride would be hell on wheels.\u00a0 Not to mention trying to maneuver the fields with the crutches, or the hour and a half wait between games, and the moving from one field to the other (even though they are right next to each other).\u00a0 It\u2019s just going to be too much.\u00a0 (Foot surgery was last Tuesday)<\/p>\n
I wrote up a cheat sheet for my mom, stuff like when BigBoy\u2019s game starts, and when GeekBoy has to get off the playground and get his cleats on for his game, and a list of players and things to identify them so she will know which name to call out.\u00a0 I told my hubby too, but he had this glazed look in his eye this morning\u2026\u00a0 So I\u2019m not entirely sure how much sank in.\u00a0 (To be fair, I know he had a lot on his mind this morning, and it didn’t help that I woke him up at like 530am or something because I was in pain and had to turn on a light to find the bathroom.\u00a0 Sry babe!)<\/p>\n
I feel\u2026\u00a0 sad, broken hearted\u2026\u00a0 I so want to be there.\u00a0 I want to see my BigBoy get his first medal (today is his \u201cteam party\u201d)\u2026\u00a0 I don\u2019t want to miss even one of my sons\u2019 games.\u00a0 But I know\u2026\u00a0 I know if I went today it would set me back.<\/p>\n
After I had Diva, when I was torn between my baby in the NICU and my toddler (GeekBoy) at my mom\u2019s house who missed me dreadfully.\u00a0 My mom told me, \u201cSometimes you have to pick the one that *needs* you over the one that *wants* you.\u201d\u00a0 She was referring to my kids, but I can apply it here.\u00a0 The mom in me *wants* to be there, the body I live in *needs* me to stay home.\u00a0 If I don\u2019t take care of the body I live in, the mom in me will find herself in a much worse position later down the road.\u00a0 Choosing the one that needs me over the one that wants me.<\/p>\n
So I sit on the couch, and I pray.\u00a0 I pray my kids will behave.\u00a0 I pray that Diva doesn\u2019t have a snit on the field today.\u00a0 I pray the boys do well in their games.\u00a0 I pray my oldest doesn\u2019t wander off as he is prone to do.\u00a0 I pray GeekBoy\u2019s team wins, because that would be awesome for Gramma & Daddy to see him win.<\/p>\n
It hurts, but I know this is what\u2019s best for me right now.\u00a0 Next week I won\u2019t have this luxury.\u00a0 Next week DH will be working and mom won\u2019t be here.\u00a0 Next week I\u2019ll have to drive them myself.\u00a0 But by next week, I shouldn\u2019t be so sore.\u00a0 Next week I will do what I have to.\u00a0 This week, I will put my foot up and pop a few more Tylenol and pray.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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