Kat's Arbitrary Thought Processes

A few years ago, I would have freaked over the little imperfections and places where the tape pulled the paint up. I would have had to scrape the wall, and repaint. But today, I look at the whole wall, not just that little spot. I am able to say, you know? It doesn’t matter. I can put it into perspective. We will be moving again soon, he’s little, he’ll never notice. In fact, most everyone who walks into the room will never see the little imperfections.

The more I think about it, the more I realize just how much this lesson has seeped into my entire life. I still struggle with perfection, especially when it comes to my scrapbooking. But I can clean my house, and not stress over every little thing, because FLYlady has given me permission to not be perfect. I don’t re-make my kids’ beds anymore. It doesn’t have to be perfect! The fact that they tried to make it themselves is all that matters. I don’t re-fold towels after my dh anymore. Instead, I look at them and think, even if it’s not the way I do it, at least he’s helping! I don’t have to re-stack the books in the right order. I can look at them and feel joy that my kids are learning at an early age to love books, and to clean up after themselves.

I still have my moments when I swear the house is closing in around me. At those points, I used to wind up cleaning like a mad woman and yelling at everyone. These days, I make a list of everything I can see that needs to be finished, and everything that is weighing on my mind (like backing up our digital photos and my scrapbook supplies). Then I can use a timer and slowly work my way down the list over a few days until it’s all done without disturbing my routines, or yelling at my family. And if I let him know what is bothering me, my dh will even check my list and take care of a few items for me! *S* I am so blessed!

I’m trying to think of a bible verse to fit with this thought, but honestly, I just can’t remember any. However, two songs come to mind that seem to fit pretty well…

Perfect
Baby every little piece
Of the puzzle doesn’t always fit
Perfectly
Love can be rough around the edges
tattered at the seams
But honey if it’s good enough for you
It’s good enough for me

~Sara Evans, “Perfect”

And another one:

I have been blessed
And I feel like I’ve found my way
I thank God for all I’ve been given
At the end of every day
I have been blessed
With so much more than I deserve
To be here with the ones
That love me
To love them so much it hurts
I have been blessed

~Martina McBride, “Blessed”